I guess I’ve been busy and slightly in denial about how bad things are getting. Getting your heart broken again and again by someone you love and trust more than anyone else in the world is one of the most painful experiences next to actual physical pain and the permanent lost of a loved one. It just sucks, plain and simple. One of the hardest parts is reassessing trust in general, it happens when you have to wake up every day knowing your family is hurting and you can do next to nothing about it, and knowing that you can’t trust anyone anymore. I wake up and sometimes feel hopeless.
There is a silver lining and that silver lining is my boyfriend who tirelessly holds me together and keeps me smiling and I’m very very very lucky to have found this one and I think about that every day. And every morning I wake up next to him I get the chance to let go of the sadness and let in the contentment of being with someone I love.
Thank goodness for the best boyfriend ever.